Blogging is about to get truly difficult. My computer is really sick so I’ll be without it for – well – I don’t know how long – a week maybe – and never again maybe. But I’ll find a way, I promise.
As I type this. A nasty computer virus is attempting to destroy my computer. And bit by bit it’s beginning to stop functioning. For instance – it won’t let me get to wordpress to post this. But love finds a way right?
Anyway…this is how it got started.
This morning as I got up around three-ish to begin writing my posts for you, I first did some mindless stuff, because I’ve been a little sick and you know how motivation wanes when you don’t feel good. That, and the medication I take for my insomnia has my brain still on vacation for a while after I get out of bed. If I typed something in that condition it’d come out looking something like this…
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So I read the comments I hadn’t replied to yet…and can’t reply to yet (grrrrr – and sorry!)
I checked my analytics to look at all the pretty numbers…
I checked my last posts to see where I left off.
Then I looked at my screensaver shot, a picture of Laska the Love Kitty climbing a tree. I thought, “I want new shot. Something pretty.”
So I googled pictures of an actress I heart – who plays a doctor on Grey’s Anatomy – just a nice, wholesome, sweet, picture. As a matter of fact, I have it here, I downloaded it a long time ago.
Hmmm. Should have thought of that first…
Anyway…here…
See! Nothing bad.
Meh – I’d be so better off married.
So I click on the nice wholesome picture and bad things start to happen. I see things like this
And then my computer won’t let me do anything at all. I do an emergency shut down and disconnect from the internets. But when I restarted the computer, the bad program was still there trying to get me to press the wrong prompt, and thereby bring on computer Armageddon.
There are spiritual metaphors galore in this story. I won’t even get started.
Oh, and did I mention the last time I backed up my computer files?
It was this century, but the years and that were still single digits…
something like 08-ish maybe.
Yeah, I know.
Anyhoo…it’s sad.
I didn’t do anything wrong.
I didn’t go where I wasn’t supposed to.
I had my antivirus software up-to-date, and running.
But every few minutes this virus is sending me prompts and freezes the computer until I choose an option – the bad one is green and the red one is ok. So tricky!
As soon as I post I’m off to the Best Buy in search of a computer geek.
This whole thing is a super good metaphor for how love is – by seeing how it’s not. I may revisit it if I escape safely. There are thoughts on trickery, and how we can go wrong even with good motives, and how we need perfect protection…
I could go on and on…it’s a really inspired idea…maybe soon….
…if my computer survives…
more tomorrow…God willing…
please come back.
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I’m so sorry about your computer virus! I’m sure most, if not all, of your readers have experienced a similar sick feeling when we visited the “wrong” site and the computer crashes. I’ll never forget one of our first meltdowns – in the days when we didn’t give backups and anti-virus software much thought – and contracted something awful only to lose all of our stored photographs. I felt as if a part of me died that day. I lost 99% of my middle daughter’s memories that day – irreplaceable photos never backed up or protected. I can literally count on one hand the baby photos of her. Hopefully those computer geeks will be able to retrieve your information and save your computer! Good luck!
Carrie, I’m going back and trying to hit all of the comments I missed while I was down and out – I think that’s so sad that you lost so many memories – I stopped the virus before it damaged my files – I was able to back them up – which is good because there are some of them that are nearly 30 years old – yes – I had a humble little computer 30 years ago and I was writing. The geeks are trying to save the computer – it’s a valiant try – the verdict is still out – they thought they fixed it – but it has problems. Anyway, thank you Carrie – and God bless you.
Dear Craig,
If you have to get a new computer, go Mac. I lost my last computer to a nasty virus and since I have had a Mac I’ve had no problems. No one wants to hurt the little guy, my computer guru said. I think he is on to something.
I feel your pain,
Dawn
finally getting to this comment Dawn – and I’m sorry I’m late – but you know what? I can’t go with the Mac – I know they’re good machines, I know they never get viruses, although that may change because there are more and more Macs out there – iPods – iPads in such – the bigger the share of the market – the more those guys will try to make up viruses for it. Anyway, I’m a creature of habit, it always has to be Heinz ketchup, Hellmann’s mayonnaise, Ragu spaghetti sauce, and the PC. God bless you Dawn!
I understand about the computer virus. Have had that happen.
Been thinking of you and your conversation all this week and praying.
Katie, the conversation was almost off, the door almost closed, and between you and me it was a little bit of a relief – but there was some family trauma and I needed to be a bridge – and so what could’ve been closed off– we’ll see how it goes – thank you for praying – it may have been prayer that made things turn out this way – his heart flared angry – but softened up. God bless you Katie!
Praying for this, too! I know this is your family cow, Craig!
family cow! I heart how you write – I heart you know me. God Bless you A!
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